Unassisted Me Now Requires Assistance

My unassisted miscarriage has not progressed as I'd hoped. I haven't written over the last week, not for pregnancy related illness, but more because I got a cold the same night I found out about the miscarriage, which then translated itself into Torran's daily routine shortly thereafter. Besides still going to work (yes, I worked miscarrying caring for people with far fewer health risks than myself, including pregnancy related worries), I've not had a decent night sleep in well over a week because of Torran's nightly coughing and getting out of bed.

Bruce is now the latest proud host of the household plague.

In true soap operaesque fashion, on the eve of Bruce getting the bit hit from the cold virus, we found out that the natural miscarriage did not work. I have a huge clot in my uterus and some unknown segment of placenta which still thinks that it is trying to support a non-existant embryotic life and ramping up my pbeta-Hcg levels. When I woke this morning with that all too familiar pregnant boob pain I knew even this was the case before the ultrasound confirmed the diagnosis of "incomplete abortion".

It's a term I hate to use at work, especially for those women who did not choose to lose their pregnancy. At least miscarriage is a less brutal way to describe the same problem.

Now, I need to have a D&C, well, technically she's going to do a dilation and suction curettage. I did have the option of taking medication to induce uterine cramping to expel the so-called retained products of conception, but that isn't guarenteed. Given our upcoming court date (for our botched basement renovation, a story I have yet to share online) and Christmas plans, I can't afford to let this go on for two more weeks.

Tomorrow I go to the doctor's designated hospital, register by 8am and wait the entire day for the gynecologist to be free from delivering other women's babies AND for empty room in the OR with accompanying staff.

I'm taking the first two books of the Robin Hobb The Farseers Assassins Trilogy (my mother in law assures me that I have to complete this series before completing the third trilogy that followed the Liveship Traders, the Dragonkeeper Triology). I've already started one and I read fast. It's going to be a LONG DAY.

If I think about it too long, I get nauseated. So I won't write about it too long either. Probably, I'll be out of commission for the rest of the weekend.